A few things about me...
- I am loud. And a lot of the time I don't even realize it. I don't know if it's because I had to talk over 3 other non-stop talking, loud siblings as a child (Ok, I still do, my family gatherings are A LOT to take, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone.)... or maybe it's a disability where I can't control the volume of my voice... or maybe subconsciously I need to be the center of attention and I talk louder to ensure that I am whether people want to pay for tickets to my circus or not. I used to feel embarrassed by this. But I realize it's just who I am. I am loud, I am vibrant and I'm going to hit you like a ton of bricks... but it's going to be fun. And think of it this way... the increasing volume of my voice correlates with how much fun I am having. So if I am talking to you and I just keep getting louder, it means that I'm enjoying talking with you. It's a compliment.... JUST ACCEPT IT! See? I am enjoying this and I like you already. ;) So my point? Maybe writing is the vent I need to tone down my attention-commanding voice!
- For the first time in my life, I am thinking about what I want. Ok, that sounds simple and very vague. Allow me to enlighten you. I am a nice person... waaay too nice. I have always prioritized others wants before my own and while that all seems very noble and I am well-loved as a result, it causes problems. In fact, I would go so far as to say that I don't even know sometimes what I want because I have never even considered it. What made me this way? It's so much an inherent part of me that I really don't even know, but I am hoping with writing this blog, I can uncover the real me.
- I'm currently unemployed. And at first, it was shocking. But I now realize it truly is a blessing. I have a great deal of free time now to play, reflect and plan the next chapter in my life... and it's going to get good... so stay tuned!!
